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I feel like screaming right now. Today I started a 6 month locum post, having been out of work for 18 months. The first news to greet me on my arrival was that, due to year end budget cuts, my new employers can only keep me on until the end of March – for 6 weeks. And to add to that, my son texted soon after to say he didn’t get a job he was going for as well. Humph!
At times like this it’s all too easy to sink into self pity, “Why God?”s and utter despair. But I have decided I’m not going to do that, though it is so very tempting. In preparation for yet another job I didn’t get, I read a book about autism by Dr Barry Prizant called “Uniquely Human”. It’s a beautifully insightful and informative guide to the condition and I can thoroughly recommend it. In this book he quotes someone living with the crushing anxiety that often accompanies autism, who makes the observation that the opposite of anxiety isn’t peace, but trust.
I don’t feel peaceful right now. My bills aren’t going to be paid with only 6 weeks of work ahead of me. But I can and do trust in God to provide for my family and me. And because I trust in my Heavenly Father, I can have peace. I don’t know what will happen after March, but He does. He’s not panicking about all of this, so why should I? The Bible tells us in Philippians 4: 6&7,
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” (NIV)
So I have a choice. I can scream or I can enjoy the ride.